Random thoughts………

It’s rare that I take to the “blog-isphere” to chat about my feelings. However, I just felt the need to express where I am in my life right now.

First of all, I feel incredibly blessed. I have the absolute BEST clients. I LOVE being friends with my clients and I feel so honored that you trust me with your most important memories. I’m also incredibly blessed to be married to the man of my dreams. And here’s a little free advice, marriage is hard. You should be with someone you can’t live WITHOUT, not someone you can just live WITH~ Life is difficult. It’s not always fun and easy and carefree. Believe me, we have seen our share of heartache over the past 18 months. Having someone that is committed to you and to the vows that you both made is so important. I am beyond blessed to have Kyle as my partner for life. He makes me want to be a better person. And I’m the mommy to my favorite little girl and little boy in the world. They make my life way better than I deserve.

Over the past 6 months, we have been faced with the harsh reality that Kyle’s mom has cancer. When you first hear those words, your brain kind of says, no that’s happening to me, to my life, to someone I love. But, it is. We’ve watched Cindy go through Chemo and we are STILL praying for a miracle. I’m thankful for every day that we have. Even the hard days. Because in those hard days, you find what you are made of and what other people are made of. Even as I read these words,they sound so cliche. But they are true. Now, more than ever before in my life. One of the BEST things I’ve done in a long time is have our family photos taken!  I treasure those more than ever now.

(Shot by my amazing friend and photographer, Amy Wood.)

I’m also dealing with the reality that my 6 year old is growing up. She is reading now and wanting to be with her friends more than me. Now, I know that I’m supposed to be working myself out of a job, but I’m not quite ready to go part-time. I like hearing her say, “I want you, Mommy”. But I know that slowly she is moving away from me. And I hope and pray that I’m raising her to be confident and secure in who she is as well as whose she is. She is mine and will always be. But more than that, she is God’s child.  By my choice and now by hers, which I’m more thankful for than words can express.

I say all of this to say, I’m just like you.  I’m a mommy, wife, friend, daughter and I’m trying my best to be the best that I can be.  Daily.  One day at a time.  Thank you for following me.  Thank you for allowing me to photograph you, your families, your moments.  Thank you for helping make my life so very worthwhile.

Much love and gratitude……………

  • Shannon Farr - Thank YOU Jana for sharing your toughts and life with all of us and for taking such beautiful pictures of our families!!ReplyCancel

  • Jenny Farnham - Thank you for sharing your heart. The best time to see someone’s character is when hard times hit. I admire you, Cindy, and your family’s character and strength through these trials. I’m am continuously praying for each of you.